Thursday, January 10, 2019

Is It Time to Slow Down?

by Emily Conrad

I may not be one for resolutions, but I’m goal-oriented.

So to prep for 2019, I thought about where I’ve been, where I am, and where I want to go.

I wrote lists about how to get there, then I ran that direction.

And would you believe, just one week—one week!—into 2019, I’ve already encountered discouragement on my way toward one of my goals for the year.

Thursday, January 3, 2019

Seeking Significance in the New Year

by Emily Conrad

This New Year’s was different than others for me. Better.

You see, I’ve been known to drop into a funk at this time of year and/or around my birthday because those events tend to prompt the realization that time is passing, and that I only have so much of it.

That’s not bad in and of itself, but after that, my thoughts have been known to go awry.

The overachiever perfectionist in me starts thinking that if I only get one chance at life, I want to rock it. I start tallying achievements, especially those that are rare and widely-visible in my circle of influence, as markers of success. I count things like promotions, recognition, money, and realized goals as reassurances that I’m on the right track.

In short, I succumb to this flashy idea of what a life should be and what makes my days worthwhile and significant.

Some years, my emotions come out the other side of the tally bolstered, but the comfort achievements offer is fleeting because I don’t always have significant successes to point to.

When my year (or worse, a series of years) appears dull and routine or shaded with failure, desperation, depression, and longing for the Next Big Thing love to take over and drag me down.